Thursday, June 08, 2006

Break from work and study

I've taken the whole week off work, hoping that the break will allow me to recover a bit faster. I had a meeting with my lecturer on tuesday, and I ran up 2 flights of stairs coz I thought I would be late. Bad idea! Very Bad Idea! The left-sided chest pain and neck pain came back with a vengance, my heart was racing, I was so puffed out and felt dizzy after that. Took pretty much the rest of the rest of the day to recover from that.

My lecturer told me to take it easy and skipped the OSPE next tuesday, and that he will arrange for it to be done sometime later in the month, together with my clinical evaluation. That still leaves the written paper on the 20th June. I don't think I'll be able to study for that as well, I'm getting dizzy just from reading for about 10 minutes, and then it takes me 1/2 an hour to recover. How crap is that?

K.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Back at work

First day back at work today. Worked for 3 hours and had 5 patients. Didn't go too badly, though I did feel a bit dizzy in between patients.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Back from the brink...

As i wasn't feeling too well on thursday, i took the day off uni and work, and by the evening, i was feeling close to 100%. I slept at 10.30pm, but woke up at 11.30pm feeling very cold and was shivering uncontrollably, even though i was wearing a beanie, 3 layers of clothing, was under 2 doonas and had the heater in my room going. I was shaking so hard that i couldn't hold a glass of water without spilling its contents.

Decided to call 000 at 12am, as it didn't seem right that i'm shaking so much that my legs started to cramp up. Spoke to the clinical nurse on 000, who asked me heaps of questions, and who could tell from my voice that i was shaking terribly, but she refused to send me an ambulance, though she said that i needed to get to the hospital within the next 1 to 2 hours. By the time i hanged up the phone, i was feeling very hot, and started throwing up. My housemate send me to the hospital, can't remember much about the journey there. I do remember collapsing outside of emergency.

The doctors at ED told me that my heart rate was slightly over 200bpm, and that the ecg showed that i was in atrial flutter and my blood was not circulating at all. Both my legs were blue by this time, and I couldn't feel my arms or my legs. They said that i should be all right once they inject a drug which stops the heart, apparently it is a very broken down form of the drug and that the effects would only last 5 to 10 seconds, and that usually 1 dose is enough. In the end, they used 4 doses, and my heart rate didn't change. I knew i was in deep sh** when after the 2nd dose, the nurses and doctors stopped chatting, and they all had this look on their face, and none of them would look me in the eyes.

The last resort was to use the defibrillator on me, it wasn't the most pleasant sensation. My whole body jumped up when electrical current hit my chest. That didn't do too much either, my heart rate dropped to 190, but refused to go any lower. I remember telling the nurse then that i felt better, and her response was,"Are you sure? You can't be serious, coz your heart rate is still at 190." I found that quite amusing, strangely enough...

Anyway, they couldn't/didn't do anything else to me and i started lapsing in/out of consciousness. When i spoke to the nurse next, she told me my heart rate started dropping very slowly about 45 minutes after the last intervention. I was still under the resus area of ED till about noon on friday, only got transfered to the wards on friday evening after my heart rate came down to about 80bpm. The ED consultant had a chat with me and told me that they had absolutely no idea what happened to me, why their intervention did not work and how my heart rate reverted on its own. That was not very comforting to say the very least.I was also told that if my heart rate had stayed at 200bpm for another 15 minutes, well, i wouldn't be typing this email today. But one thing all the doctors agreed on was that it is very highly unlikely that it is going to happen again. The doctors are sticking to the story of a viral attack of the heart, even though all the cultures and tests have turned up clean.

There's no permanent damage to my heart and i'm due to go in for a ultrasound of the heart, as well as a cardiology follow-up. Apart from a throbbing head, nausea, a dull achy sensation in my left chest and feeling cold, I'm not too bad.

K.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Sick....

Bleaghghhghghghhhhh........
I'm sick..... It started off with right sided jaw pain on tuesday, then progressed to left sided neck pain and left sided back pain on wednesday, plus numerous visits to the loo...
Went for clinical placement on wed arvo, bad move... very bad move, should have just stayed home, heavy patients=more back pain.

Had to go to work after clinics was done at the hospital, and when i got to work, i realised that i had 8 patients in the space of 2 hours. Not very helpful if you are feeling like crap. Luckily, one of the other physio took 2 of my patients, so i had only 6.
Went back home after that, had a shower, watched some telly, all the while feeling sick as...

Then to bed at 9.30pm, where i spent a good 4 hours shivering, coz i was so freaking cold, even though i had the heater on, a polar fleece jacket on top of 2 t-shirts, 2 pairs of trackies, bed socks and lying in the fetal position under a huge doona. Had to wake up several times through the night to go to the loo and pop pills. Still not feeling too flash now, the loo has been my best friend for the best part of the day, and i haven't eaten anything since tuesday coz i'm not hungry.

Plus i have my clinical placement evaluation tomorrow! How fantastic is that?

Bleaagghhhhhh...
K.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Honey, I'm home!!

I'm back! Completely forgot that I had a blog...... Hahahaha..

K.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Stifling originality

One of my course lecturers said something that really made a lot of sense to me. He said that, "Evidence-based practice stifles originality." That is so damned true ! If we had stucked to tried and tested ways of doing things, we would never have progressed as we have.

No doubt that evidence-based practice is a good way to practice physiotherapy, but if we keep on doing the same things, time and time again, how are we going to progress ? We need to adapt, to change and to create new theories, new treatment methods to keep in touch with whats happening around us. The human form doesn't change much, that is a fact, but we now know more and more about how the body functions as more research is being done.

The same lecturer stopped me today, to ask how i was coping with studying and working at the same time. That was really nice of him, i think. It really made my day. To tell you the truth, i find it really taxing having to work and study at the same time, the amount of work that i need to do for the masters course is absolutely shocking. Plus, I am now working on tuesdays as well. So that leaves just friday as my day off work. Well, I should be thankful that I have work to do, and I am !

I'm just so tired though, can't seem to get a decent night's sleep without getting interrupted by weird dreams. Sometimes I can't seem to differentiate between my dreams and reality. Maybe the dreams are caused by axonal sprouting, and the building of new neural pathways in my brain ? I wish.....

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Realisation...

After speaking to Hermione last night, I realised that even though the age difference between me and the rest of the gang (Michael, Ian and Jess) is not that big, fundamentally though the difference between our thinking and maturity is huge.

They are able to satiate the playfulness in my character, the need to joke around and not be serious, but on a deeper level, I'm unable to gain fulfillment from my relationship with them. Its nobody's fault. As herm said, they are still growing up, still coming to grips with the complexities of the world around them, whereas i on the other hand, I'm just growing old...

So in retrospect, this anger, this rage that i have is caused by my ethnocentric view of friendship.

There is one thing that herm and I agree on wholeheartedly though... That its the little things, the smallest of things that really matter...


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